01/17/2026
I try to explain to people what I see my heathen hut finished might look like. Easiest way to explain it is that, it will be the short bus verison of a nordic longhouse lmao. But I don't need much, never really have.
Enough room for my daughter and myself. I've changed the plans up again. The front half of the roof is already framed and pitched. The back half will be raised up another 4ft taller and then a 2nd pitch. So a 2up roof "bikers will understand that knee slapping joke" haha. I figured that will give my lil girl all the room she'll need for many years to come. I can see it in my head clear as day, as I do all things I create. And I'd say it's prob about 37% completed thus far.
I'm giving myself til fall this year to have that f**ker up, winterized and ready to move in. I thought 2 months was more then enough time for a simple 20x20 lean-to roof structure to go up, yea nope. Because then I got slammed with dual eye stye infections, then we got a s**t ton of rain. Which flooded my tent out several times over. Everything in the universe has been fighting against me, screaming at me to fu***ng quit it NOW!!!!
I'm either stupid as s**t or brave as f**k, the line between the 2 is really really thin tho ha. Cuz I kept going, I'm determined to have a home I built (with whatever help I can get of course to make it possible) for myself and more importantly for my lil hippie heathen and I together as we should be. I've been thru the ringer enough in my lifetime, that I thought I broke the mother fu**er..... yea, nope. These past (hail the sacred number) 9 months have been absolute hel with working on the hut. Let alone the past 2yrs.
I'd much rather her grow up having awesome memories of how daddy made that because of her vs just buys buys buys for her. She needs to know how every step I take, every move I calculate towards my future self to benefit to the fullest. All the cries for help, all the cries while working on it while working thru the pain. My hunger to have my lil one next to me and proud to stand next to me. It's victory or valhal. It's build or d¡e trying to finish it mode. I'd really love to pull this off, because I have been given a really awesome opportunity. Because of my oldest pa brother, and his parents that didn't know me from the back side of their arses. Took a risk on this heathen that doesnt have anything to offer back yet and accepted me into the fold and offered me a piece of their 7 acres, said if I can gather the materials and find a spot. Then to give it a go. So a go I am fu***ng giving it, and I ain't fu***ng done yet. I will bend anyway I need to, but I will NEVER FOLD.
I will either complete my heathen hut, and eventually d¡e happily in the woods, where I belong, surrounded by the very things I worship. Or I'll kick the bucket trying and be buried in them woods, because for some f**king reason. Idk how to give up on something I've started. I still have alot to get for the hut. I also still have my whole shop I have to remove from a home that was never intended to be mine, even after all the time and money I've invested into that place. Like brand new floors, bottom under deck patio, new fence, and so many other things smh. I will have something that is mine, made by my own imagination and my own hands. Like everything else I've done in this lifetime. The absolutely funniest part is, she dreamt of owning a small home one day. Yet here I am doing it lmao instead of her, cuz she likes flashy shinny "here's how big my d¡ck is" things. I want the simple life.
I will either conquer and live life.
Or I'll d¡e trying, fighting for the life I want to live.
I still need a bunch of stuff to help make the idea of completion reachable tho. But for now. I continue making the moves I need to when I need to. If I can't, I'll figure a fu***ng way out on how to make them.
Come spring, it's game time!!!!. So cross your fingers, lend a hand, help somehow someway. You're either riding with me, or you're in my way. IF you're in my way, you better move quick or I will run over you and not look back. But if you're riding with me, then ill make sure there's a seat at the table for ALL supporting hands. We will break bread together. That's my word, on my honor.
It will prob end up looking like the "heathen path" pic, which I'm ok with. But I see a mix between the triangle fairytale house and the heathen path haha. So who's gonna ride this b¡tch with me until the wheels fall off??. I've learned I can't do everything by myself, I need a army behind me on somethings. The others, just a few solid people gets more done then I could ever do with my severally broken arse lol 😢....
Oh and if anyone happens to have any kinda house building materials that don't want and would possibly donate. Or if you're willing to help grab something off a list. I'd be awfully grateful. Still alot of things I need to keep my lil girl safe as can be and as warm or cool as possible. Hit a heathen up, and I'll try to list it all.
