08/19/2026
As I wrap up this season, I’ve found myself thinking a lot about the last five years of growing flowers.
Next year will be my sixth year on the farm, and I think it’s time I admit something I admit every year: I’m still figuring this out. 😂
Every year I make plans. Every year I have a vision for how things will run. And every year, the farm has a way of reminding me that things don't always go according to plan.
Life with my kids and family is busy. I also have some autoimmune health challenges that bring a level of fatigue I have to work around, and farming is a physically demanding job. Sometimes my plans and my energy simply don't match.
I know I’m not always as organized as I should be, and I don’t always stick to the schedule I intended to. I’m sure those things are noticeable to those of you who have followed my journey over the years.
I have to remind myself that I’m not a failure. I’ve been able to grow so many incredible flowers and I have learned so much about plants, soil, and the floral and farming industry over these five years. That part is a win!!
I just need to figure out how to run this farm in a way that is actually sustainable for me. And honestly, I say some version of that every year as well. 😂
This season was particularly difficult. We experienced tremendous loss on the farm, and by the end of July, I was physically and mentally exhausted. There were honestly moments when I wondered if I could keep doing this. I was ready to throw in the towel.. for a moment.
But I can't walk away. I love it too much.
So I’m going to use this off-season to rest, get organized, and really think about what I can realistically take on next year. I had hoped to do a fall Bouquet Club, but I’ve decided that taking this time off is the right decision.
And to the 36 of you who trusted me with your Bouquet Club subscription this year—thank you. You put your money and your trust in me months before you ever knew what those bouquets would look like, and I don’t take that lightly. 🩷
I want to give a huge shout-out to Flowerson66 Leotie Bouquets & Design Maypop Flower Farm & Missouri Flower Exchange for helping me fill the supply gaps in all my bouquets each week with their beautiful flowers. A little over half the money you spent for this bouquet went to supporting these farms, too. Which makes my heart happy.
This season didn't go the way I wanted it to. But I’m grateful you were here for it, and I’m grateful I get to keep figuring this thing out. 💐
