09/23/2026
I honestly don’t even know how to start this post because I don’t think I have the words to explain where my head or my heart are right now.
I want to be as transparent as possible because I know there are people waiting on orders, messages, updates, and responses from me, and I don’t want anyone thinking I’ve forgotten about them or that I don’t care.
A few weeks ago, I made a post explaining that between breaking my ankle and dealing with some family medical issues with another family member, I was struggling to keep up the way I normally do. I remember how hard it was for me to even make that post because anyone who knows me knows how much I hate letting people down.
At the time, I genuinely thought that was going to be the biggest obstacle I had to get through this year.
I had absolutely no idea what was coming.
I came home Sunday and went to bed on what unbeknownst to me was the last “normal” day I would experience and by Monday, my entire world had been turned upside down.
One of the most important people in my life was hospitalized for what we initially thought was going to be a relatively minor medical issue or at the very least something we could have understood.
Instead, we were given the kind of diagnosis you think only happens to other families or in your favorite medical dramas. The kind you never, in a million years, think you’re going to be sitting in a hospital room hearing about someone you love more than you could ever put into words.
Since then, every single day has just blurred into the next.
Hospitals. Doctors. Tests. Biopsies. Phone calls. Research. Referrals. Medication. Treatment Plans. All while trying to understand and process all the information being thrown in our direction. Trying to be strong for the people around us while simultaneously feeling like our entire world is falling apart.
I don’t even know if I’ve had one completely clear thought or emotion in the last week.
There is something absolutely indescribable about sitting next to someone you love so much that you would trade places with them without hesitation if somebody gave you the option—and realizing there isn’t a damn thing you can do to fix it.
You can love them with everything you have.
You can research until 5:00 in the morning.
You can call doctors, ask questions, get second opinions, look for treatments and tell yourself there has to be something else.
You can offer every dollar you have and everything you own.
And then you have to somehow process the fact that sometimes love, money, determination, and wanting something badly enough simply cannot change the reality you’ve been handed.
I can’t begin to explain that heartbreak when a doctor tells you that even if everything goes as perfect as possible and she can withstand these treatments that at the very best it’s only going to give you a little bit more time. Time that is already way shorter than anyone ever expected.
So right now, I’m trying to learn how to live in a world where everything is being taken one day at a time.
Some days I might work all day and get a ton accomplished. Other days, my family might need me and I may accomplish absolutely nothing.
And right now, I can’t apologize for choosing them.
I am still working. I’m still filling orders. And anything that has a specific due date attached to it is still my priority, and I fully intend to have those orders completed on time.
Everything else, I am still going to try my absolute hardest to complete as quickly as I can. Some orders may unfortunately take longer than I originally anticipated, and I will reach out individually hopefully starting tomorrow afternoon, so we can figure out what works best for you.
Normally I would tell everyone, “Give me a day and I’ll get caught up.”
Normally I’d stay awake all night, drink way too much caffeine, work until my hands hurt and somehow pull off the impossible because that’s just what I do.
But I can’t promise that right now.
Because right now, if I have the choice between finishing something two days sooner or spending those two days making memories with someone I love, I’m choosing the memories. Every single time.
Work will still be there tomorrow.
An order can be finished tomorrow.
A message can be answered tomorrow.
But I’m learning in the most painful way possible that we aren’t always promised another tomorrow with the people we love.
So I’m asking everyone to please give me a little patience and grace while I try to navigate something I never imagined my family would be going through.
And to everyone who has reached out, prayed for us, checked on me, offered help, sent love, or simply said, “Don’t worry about me right now”—thank you.
Even when I haven’t answered, I’ve seen you.
I appreciate you more than you know.
I’m still here. I’m still trying. I’m still going to give what I can to my customers because I truly love what I do and I appreciate every single person who supports me.
But right now, I’m also a granddaughter, a daughter, a sister, and a member of a family whose entire world changed overnight.
So for once in my life, I’m giving myself permission to not have everything figured out.
I’m taking it one day at a time.
I’m soaking up every good moment.
I’m making every memory I possibly can.
And I’m spending as much time as I can with the people I love while I still have the opportunity to do it. ❤️❤️❤️
